i'm happy just to dance with you

i turned in my play report today. i did it all last night. it was good. i think

there was also a prep ralley. alex alyssa and i sat in the back left corner and watched. i like the dancers. thats about it. otherwise it only contributed to the loss of my hearing and other's vocal cords. too bad i couldn't skip out on this one. next time tho. i shall. trust me. there is no way anyone can drag me to any other one of those stupid things.

tomorrow i have to wake up at 9am and go to ypas for design adn production for 4 hours. yayness. is it bad for me to like a guy who is gay and older than me. i woudln't ever date him. i just like his attention. i don't plan on cheating on dion with him or anything. i just think its funny and i'm trying to figure out if he's flirting with me. i'll ask dion tomorrow. i'm going over to his house for a bit. too bad sarah's grounded. we could have a movie orgy.

ok. i went upstairs and took a shower. and now i have nothing to write about...yeah


adios y'all

my lips are bleeding. they put me in this contraption that holds my lips open and they made me bite down on a piece of rubber. for 50 minutes.

i have to clean my room...i don't wanna. i wonder if holly is alive.

i went to therapy today. we talked about death. and suicide. and cutting. and boyfriends. and sleeping

mer


she treats me like a kid. but i made sure she noticed that i'm not a dumbfuck.

although my mom thinks i am too.

i feel sick. all the time. mer.all of a sudden i don't feel like typing anymore.

tomorrow mom is taking me to the art fair. thingy...yeah

today has been. interesting. lots of mood swings i think.

i miss people. i miss my old life. i feel like i've lived two lives. but i like the life i'm in i guess. i like the old one too. the old one was simpler, this one is more interesting.

i really don't want to choose. and i don't want to be asked to choose.

mer


adios,
liz