well. i feel really odd. i don't know what i feel anymore. or what i think. its really weird. i miss feeling like i used to. i liked that. i had some sort of control of it. and i miss dion. i havn't talked to him since thurs. and i didn't talk to him on tues. and mer. i just. i worry. i worry that he cheats on me. and i worry that he's avoiding me. so i stopped calling. he'll figure that i want to talk to him. and i actually have stuff to talk about. i've told everyone else. and i need to see him. to actually show him how i am now. i need to show sarah too. even tho i'll get abused for it.

i don't care about crying anymore. i cry in front of people all the time now. i don't care. i don't care about biting people's heads off.

i want to be a happy person i think. i odn't like not being happy.

see ya later peoples,
liz