why am i afraid of the dark all of a sudden. i've never really enjoyed the dark before. but now i get all jumpy and i'm actually afraid of it. i dont' know why. i'm tempted to blame ellie and her making me watch that movie. but it wasw after the movie that i started being afraid. it was the morning when i heard noises coming from the dining room and i freaked out and i made andrew go downstairs before me. es i know...childish. but ever since then i've had only bad dreams and i'm afraid of the dark. i think i just keep freaking myself out. not good

i fell asleep at 7 10 and woke up at 2 10. i'm going back to bed soon i think. i keep worrying that i have hw. i know i have spanish and math and english. but spanish isn't til 3rd period. i have study hall 2nd. so i'll do it then. there's only about 5 pages out of my wb. so i'll have plenty of time. unless i get confused.

i look forward to the weekends more than i ever have in my life. its the only time i can actually take a second and observe whats going on around me. its insane. there's no more time for drama. i think some people are going to shock figuring that out. dss (drama shock syndrome) yep yep.

i miss some school tomorrow. hopefully only english and dance. i really dont' want to miss algebra. no no no no no no. if i miss that then i'm really bhind. i'm still catching up from when i was sick 2 weeks ago. i still need notes from jessica. and she needs some of my notes. we'll get it all figured out. i figure by next month everything will be figured out and ill get a routine and everything will be fine. i just have to keep telling myself to do the work.. don't give up. etc